Survey Says...?

So i took this personality survey the other week. I kinda skimmed a paragraph or two on the results, but since it was online i copy and pasted a few different pages for a later date. Well the other night i finally got around to reading them and i realized that there are people out there that i can really relate to. It was pretty impressive how it hit a few nails on the head. Id have to say that this thing put it in words better than i probably could have. heres a couple excerpts just for the sake of it. and as my friend chris said, im pretending that this might mean something to someone else:

Sensing is introverted and often invisible. This stealth function in the third position gives INFPs a natural inclination toward absent- mindedness and other-worldliness, however, Feeling's strong people awareness provides a balancing, mitigating effect.

caught in the approach- avoidance bind between concern both for people and for All Creatures Great and Small, and a psycho-magnetic repulsion from the same

Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response
i.e. impusliveness

seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect, perhaps because they are likely to have a sense of inner division threaded through their lives, which comes from their often unhappy childhood...come to see themselves as ugly ducklings.

Deeply committed to the positive and the good, yet taught to believe there is evil in them, Healers can come to develop a certain fascination with the problem of good and evil, sacred and profane.


These are my thoughts of the week. Ill try and get the link up for anyone who might be interested. More plans on the betterment of mankind and the proper way to create and eat a culinary masterpiece made of only jello, animal crackers and soy product to come.

The Beginnings of Foriegn Policy and The Easter Bunny

Since we have just recently experienced a largely celebrated, Christian based holiday, i find it only fitting to address an important issue as we all leave our pews walk away from one of the most crowded days in Church. It has come to my attention that Easter traditions have become lax over the last several years. Each step of the way has backslide ever so slightly to keep the common eye at bay, but i promise you, this trend has become a slipperly sloap which calls for a state of alarm. You might be thinking "heretic", "blasphemer" right now, but i assure you, this is as true to tradition as a cadbury cream egg. This understated tradgedy that addresses us every time we wake up on that jewish calander based morning, the piece that has gone missing from this American past time is the solid chocolate bunny. thats right, the solid chocholate bunny. i remember years ago when i was barely old enough to remember, there were solid chocolate bunnies for every boy and girl. but now the manufacturers have realized that they can sell the same heartwarming shape for merely half of the sweet chocalaty goodness inside. at least we still have the cream filled cadbury eggs. enjoy those bunny ears kids, cuz thats the only solid part left.

and now for a breif history lesson:

Communism... it makes us shudder as free born Americans. It makes us thank our founding fathers for breaking off from England and creating a more perfect union that enables us to freely choose our own destiny, whatever it may be. And if its to go down with a ship so be it, it is our God given right as americans. and thats what im here to breifly touch on today. You see, we as Americans from early on made ourselves as the big brother to the smaller nations. Such as when we became the immovable foot on western hemisphere foriegn polocy to all thos back in Brittian. Over the years we have kept this mindset, sometimes more loosely than others. We cant just yell at America for always sticking its neck out where it doesnt belong because we didnt even join the war till the Japanese bombed pearl harbor. But of course, we no longer sat idly by, but i digress.

What im trying to say is that we as Americans do look out for the well being of the other countries on the globe, and whether or not we take swift and decisive action, we care. Over the years this big brother, take you under our bald eagle wing mentality has helped shape the bell curve of this globe. In these efforts to maintain peace and democracy for every man, woman and child, we have occasionally had to step on the toes of those who did not completely agree with our way of life. namely, the communists. As we all know, there are profound differences in the way these two systems of government work so we needent bring up the gory details.

The point of this trip down memory laine is to introduce to you where these deep seated emotions of stopping communism came from. You see, it started long before the cold war, or even before mother Russia. I tell you, it started in our own homelands before it ever reached a foriegn shore. i tell you it stated with the indians. thats right, small villages of communities that tried to share and not take anything more for themselves than they needed. they lived a simpler life that worked, but long before corporate american stormed the bay of pigs, our roots were defining the path that we would follow for the rest of our lives.

as you can cleary see from this breakthroug research, we are merely a product of our environment.

Supporting Our Troops

Now before you go ahead a write me off for adressing such a riskey topic, i'd like you to first understand that my intentions are purely for the sake of everyone involved and in no way am i trying to instill my own political agenda. Lets face it America, weve had our troops in the middle east for quite some time now. Now we could spend all day discussing the issues of should we or shouldnt we, but the truth of the matter is that this will only cause an even greater catalyst in the loss of moral. When it all started a few years ago, we Americans were by far one hundred percent sold on giving these guys what they deserved for all that they did to us. Now that the hype has faded we must asses the situation and see where we stand. This brings to mind a very passionate country song i heard on the radion once that said something about bin laden and "have you forgotten?" i think those word ring very true this day.

So now that we have established that our troops are in fact on the other side of the globe and theres a slim to none chance that they will be suddenly ordered to completely withdraw in the next 24 hours, we need to do something about it. What, you ask? Well stick around then because this stagnent pond of disease is about to get shook up with some fresh antibodies.

You see, the most important part of this situation is not taking out our disagreements on the government, but instead to support those who are doing the job they were given to the best of their abilities. Here is the most vital part of the situation at hand: i believe that the Conservative Christian Right needs to form together and take one firm unilateral stand on this issue once and for all. If a coalition (or army) is trying to battle on different fronts in different directions, then nobody will get anything done.

To promote this unibodied movement, i can only propose the most logical solution possible. The best way to support our troops and bring the Conservative Christian Right Wings all together is to bring about a resurgence (and quite possibly a reprise) of the childrens crusade. Now i know what your thinking, blacksmiths arent nearly as common as they used to be, but i assure you that this will cause no setbacks. You see, children bring joy to the hearts of those around them. In this way not only will we be encouraging the troops and bringing more aid to show them that we as Americans do still completely support them, but it will also help to teach children the true roots of where the melding of religion and politics really came from. Not to mention the values that we have slowly drifted away from over all these years.

As you can see, this act will once again unify this once great nation back to its former glory and the values and ethics we have strayed from. If we cannot learn from the mystakes of history than there is no need for us to study it at all. This movement will show the world that the United States stands together in unity on all fronts.

and the beast comes alive

i just went to one of the best live shows ive ever been to tonight. a few weeks ago my friends were raving about this band called "nothing more" that they went and saw. one of them actually saw the band two nights in a row. these guys are very talented and they also know how to put on a good and energetic show. it was pretty amazing. such energy for such a small little venue made me feel like family. it was a very audience friendly/interactive show when you know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the band as a whole does not take themselves too seriously, but instead want to have fun and want you to be a part of it every step of the way. this, however, cannot be said of the band after them. they looked like a metal band, sounded more brit pop or something... i dont even know, but the best part was the lead singer convulsing on stage (for those of you Pdubs from last summer, think of lance only this guy was serious). during a longer musical interlude of one of the songs he was actually on the floor writhing on his back.

after about 10 mintues of that we went and hung out in nothing mores RV. good times. i now have a new appreciation for doritos salsa chips and for people who try too hard. i also got a free shirt out of it. then we hit up dennys for about 4 hours. take that nacogdoches... a place where not only good venues exist, but a place where ihop and dennys can co-exist happily within 2 blocks of each other. tonight also made me wish i had a good, legit reason to leave school with recless abandon for the sake of something like a blossoming musical career or something like that. i would prefer not having to finish college if i could help it right now, but thats just me being honest.

My future, myself, and the inevitable

so i know that pretty much the only good idea that i could have about next semester would be to re enroll and get back full swing and hopefully be out in a year or meby a little over. and i know its probably the inevitable and im gonna end up doing it, but theres a peice of me that gets upset at how pointless it feels right now. i know that college degrees are important and will open up the door beyond the world of dead end jobs and such(i know its not quite that way, but im generalizing for the sake of simplicity). i know that unless i can materialze the dream of being in a band and becoming famous, im probably gonna need a degree to do most anything that i really want to. so all the arrows pretty much point to putting in the effort because it will pay off. the thing is that im one of those people who does something when i can see the end of something. i dont mean that i have to know whats going to happen ultimately and every detail on the way, but some sort of sense of the word direction and right now im not really feeling it. like i said, its pretty much inevitable so dont think im gonna go throw it all away or anything.

what gets me is the whole mingling of my dreams compared to the dreams of everyone else and the dreams and ideals that have been put into my head from day one by parents and the community i grew up in. im no robot, but i dont really know how far you can really stray from the beginning foundations of your existence. for a while i went through the stage of fighting those rules and rebeling, but it was still living around the same structure and confines that had always existed.

as for the deal with not really feeling it, i have developed a pattern of doing things that i never really cared about from the start. i would do itfor someone else and then get to the part where the rubber meats the road and back out cuz like i said, i never really cared about beign there in the first place. theres alot of things like that where i dont regret leaving halfway cuz it never felt like my fight or my thing. just taking and learning while it was in season. for example, i was in scouts, but i never got my eagle and im still ok with that. i learned that i like camping and being outdoors better than being cooped up all the time. the point of the matter is that i can feel worse off, at least for the moment, when im trying to finish something that i dont feel that i ever truely put my mind in to realy start. kinda picking up someone elses momentum and realize halfway through that it feels so unnatural now that im trying to do it on my own. i just know that getting back into school and finishing is something i have to say that i want and that im gonna go back pretending to care and getting caught in the cycle of appathy. thats kinda how i got here in the first place.

The way we treat our friends

things im just not sure i understand: why we use the word plutonic to describe the unromantic bond between two people. first off, we know that the first part of the word "pluto" stands for the furthest planet in our known solar system. then we have the letter "n" which is an abbreviation for the word "and". then to top this all off we have the suffix "ic" which we all know stands for strong distaste with similarity to the words "ewe" and "disgusting. so why then do we say that the opposit of romance is being distant and gross? i just dont think thats fair to everyone else.